inner talk, to you

What is the pattern of falling in love in our case? How do we heal from wounds each other caused?

How do we just leave everything behind and walk on while craving for rooting someone so much?

How can I make myself believe you never heard me, never felt my soul, never saw my vitals?

Its not a book that I need to turn to page just to forget. How do you do that?

How do you just live without everything I gave you that you were so happy to accept to your life?

How did you move away from the thing you claimed to be waiting for your whole life?

Was it a delusion? You were not sober all the way?

I have so many questions and so many thoughts running in my mind wildly yet I cant find a word to say. Am I doomed?

I know a time will come when I see you right in front of me and we will be able to talk. I don’t even know if can hug you.

I don’t know if want to or if I can find the strength to kiss, to look you in the eye.

I don’t know if I still love you, do you still love me as you claimed you will.

I cant see what god wanted me to learn by giving another case of heartbreak.

I shouldn’t be dealing with a teenagers love problems. This is insane.